Turn to Him

Hear, you deaf;

look, you blind, and see!

Who is blind but my servant,

and deaf like the messenger I send?

Who is blind like the one committed to me,

blind like the servant of the Lord?

You have seen many things, but have paid no attention;

your ears are open, but you hear nothing.”

Isaiah 42:18-20

I was so blessed to have a godly woman pray over me at the retreat last weekend.  God had opened my eyes to the fear I was still carrying about Eric’s sobriety.  I asked for her to help me release this fear and trust.  She quickly showed me a truth I had been ignoring.  I cannot control Eric’s sobriety.  If I have put my trust in God strengthening him to not drink, I will fall quickly.  In doing this, I have put my eyes on Eric instead of on God.  I want to be so deeply in communion with God that no matter what circumstances come my way, I am secure. 

Whoever drinks the water I give her will never thirst.  Indeed, the water I give will become in her a spring of water welling up to eternal life.  John 4:14

And the closer I am to God, I find myself discovering that perhaps this is not so much fear, but displaced thirst.  For the more I meditate on His word, spend time in communion with Him, the more the fears falls away.  In its place is a deep peace and satisfaction.

Psalm 118:8 – It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man.

And this does not just apply to my marriage.  As I sit here and read these verses over and over, it is as if a floodgate is being opened.  The fog is being lifted and the Truth is being revealed.   I am so quick to turn to friends; through email and facebook, phone calls and questions.  Why do I turn to earthly things when the answers are right in front of me, inside of me?  His promise, His Word brings so much more clarity.  Oh how I want everyone to experience this.

Let the desert and its towns raise their voices;

let the settlements where Kedar lives rejoice.

Let the people of Sela sing for joy;

let them shout from the mountaintops.

12Let them give glory to the Lord

and proclaim his praise in the islands.

Isaiah 42:11-12

I invite you to join me.  Spend time with Him.  Revel in His word, His promises.  Come along with me and discover a world you could never imagine.